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Tuesday, December 15th, 2009
2:30 am
만약에 내가 간다면 내가 다가간다면
넌 어떻게 생각할까 용기 낼 수 없고
만약에 니가 간다면 니가 떠나간다면
널 어떻게 보내야할지 자꾸 겁이 나는걸

내가 바보같아서 바라볼 수 밖에만 없는건 아마도

외면 할지도 모를 니 마음과 또 그래서 더 멀어질 사이가 될까봐

정말 바보같아서 사랑한다하지 못하는건 아마도
만남뒤에 기다리는 아픔에 슬픈 나날들이 두려워서인가봐
만약에 니가 온다면 니가 다가온다면
난 어떻게 해야만 할지 정말 알수 없는걸
내가 바보같아서 바라볼 수 밖에만 없는건 아마도
외면 할지도 모를 니 마음과 또 그래서 더 멀어질 사이가 될까봐
정말 바보같아서 사랑한다하지 못하는건 아마도
만남 뒤에 기다리는 아픔에 슬픈 나날들이 두려워서인가봐
내가 바보같아서 사랑한다하지 못하는건 아마도
만남 뒤에 기다리는 아픔에 슬픈 나날들이 두려워서인가봐

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Sunday, December 13th, 2009
11:56 pm

happy mugging.

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Friday, December 11th, 2009
9:08 am

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Thursday, December 10th, 2009
11:07 pm

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Sunday, December 6th, 2009
11:19 am








following in gwee's hokkien trend. watch the last one please.

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Friday, December 4th, 2009
11:26 pm
i've realized i haven spoke to some people in a real real long time.

perhaps its time to do some catch up.

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Saturday, November 7th, 2009
2:22 am
sometimes the simplest of things can mean the greatest of everything.

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Saturday, October 31st, 2009
10:44 pm
alright. i think many people have been wondering what I've been up to at penn so far, and since I've been rather lazy at updating, I shall attempt to try to recall as much as I can over the past 2 months (exactly) I've spent here so far. it may be boring.

I'm getting more and more used to studying and living in the US. it was difficult initially. connecting with americans is totally different from connecting with asians or singaporeans. americans are awesome and making conversations, which honestly i find a dread doing. so naturally when it comes to those interaction/social events, i will be pretty quiet and everything. of course the stuff they talk about are also drastically different. while back in singapore i can begin an introduction by saying im a fan of manchester united, i've not even attempted it here. soccer is just not what it is like in singapore. they talk about baseball (especially when you're in philly), talk about where they come from (i'm still struggling with states and everything). im trying to watch baseball now, so well there will be one additional topic to talk about. also, the singaporean "slang" is quite difficult to erase. and it's difficult to understand too. haha we were saying, the PRCs cannot understand our chinese, and the americans cant understand our english, so we really epic failure. but i've improved! haha previously every sentence that i said met a reply of "whats that/say that again". honestly, im speaking with some slang now, or at least i attempt to. but when i talk to singaporean, automatically enter singaporean mode lol. to the extent that im labeled as an uncle cos of the amount of dialect i use in my speech and i dunno the manner i talk? lol. but yes, stanley is surviving. and im making a few more american friends. im talking more with my hallmates, my management team mates and basically people that i meet on a more regular basis than those hi-bye ppl. i've joined pennOutdoors, basically an outdoors club. was supposed to go skydiving but got postponed cos of bad weather grr. ppl around me are like having 2-5 ccas, but i just couldnt find any that was interesting to me, and well, those that i find interesting are not as interesting to others, or require heavy costs (i wanted to go sign up for this medical emergency response team thing but it required me to take a course that cost $800). i'll see how it goes, maybe i'll really find something that interests me, or maybe i'll just go grab an internship.

speaking of my room, i must talk about the very memorable birthday i had here. so the story begins on the night of 11oct. being guai1 singaporeans, we were studying at one of the halls. then when it was about 10min past 12, they said they wanted to leave, which was rather weird given that we normally study together till bout 1am or 2am. so dumbdumb me just say ok, lets go, but let me solve finish one stats qn first lol. so eventually we left, but went up to one of the singaporean's room first cos they said they wanted to take/pass something, i cant remember exactly cos i was trying to call kuangli, who dint pick up (you will noe why later). so when we went into the singaporeans room, there was a big SURPRISE. haha so basically there were like so many singaporeans squeezed into that room with a cake and everything. now if u noe how big a uni dorm is, try imagine it with bout 20ppl squeezed inside. haha that was the shock i got. yesh so it was a very nice surprise to begin my birthday, but that is not the end. so that nite (12oct), we were studying in the library. there was an event at the quad (one of the halls) at 1130pm, so we decided to head over there to check it out. after the event, they said they wanna check out my room and whether it has transformed from an army bunk into something more hospitable. so we went to my room, which was in the quad. so when i opened the door, i was shocked when there was ANOTHER surprise. who would expect so many surprise, especially in YOUR OWN ROOM. so basically when i looked into my room, i saw the entire room plastered with pictures of SNSD (girls generation)! haha i was like "wat happened blurr". apparently while we were studying in the library, they managed to get me to pass them my key without me realizing it, went to my room, pasted the pictures, and return me the key. all without me knowing. im quite failure right. so my room is now very nice and pretty, though others may think im some perverted guy haha but heck!

alright my flow of thoughts now very luan4, so please bear with me, im not going in sequential order but more of categorical. so today is my first halloween in the states, or anywhere. thursday night went to eastern state penitentiary for haunted house. supposedly the best haunted house in the states so well must try. and it was really good. the set-up, props, makeup and everything were damn elaborate. everyone from the ushers to the actors had very good and realistic makeup. and the fact that it was in a real, abadoned prison with real cells and walls and everything made it feel realistic. it sorta reminded me alot about scream... then last night went for the party organized by clubSG. haha went dressed up as a vampire lol which was quite budget. got zhangxi and dionne to do my make up HAHA it was quite good. my first time clubbing in the states, well it's a bit different compared to singapore. people are more touchy and everything. and well, they end at 2am sharp lol unlike singapore.

lessons-wise, things have been going fine. i'm sorta having my slack period now, after 2 weeks of siong-ness cos of midterms. im taking 6 courses if you're wondering: management, stats, intro legal studies, bio lab, organic chem, lifescience&management. so unlike most of my friends who have their midterms spread over like 3-4 weeks, and then by the time they are done with one, the next round of midterm begins, my midtemrs were all concentrated. so essentially i had 3 midterms and one paper due. and that was after fall break, which was spent in newyork hahha. currently the classes that im not quite doing as well as i want are like legal studies and organic chem. i think im just not used to answering the questions for legal studies yet, cos i know the answers, but put the wrong stuff down haha. as for orgo chem, im taking a sophomore class, so the curve is pushed damn high up. the stuff im learning in mgmt isnt really useful, but well no choice must do. its pretty much similar to the mgmt class in singapore i guess, organize an event an everything. bio lab is real basic stuff, which im getting very bored at. lifesciences&management (LSM) is one of the more interesting class, learning about pharmaceutical industry, healthcare system and everything. and the professors are damn good and are literally the top in their field. and we get to listen to talks by prominent CEO/MDs of biotechs/pharmas and panel discussion and everything. and it helps that the class is only bout 30, so it's very focused. i had to write a paper for that, and haha i must say im pretty happy that i completed it, though it was like 2 days overdue hahaha. and the prof's comments were :D "stanley, your work was worth the wait" whee :D

FALL BREAK! NEWYORK! okok so the whole lot of like 10 singaporeans went down to newyork for 2 days. the first time i left philly lol i noe i suck. so basically i went broadway to watch phantom of the opera, which was real good the real deal man. i cant believe im enjoying musicals haha considering i dint watch any b4 in singapore. and in my 3rd month here, i would have watched 3! chicago, phantom and mamamia (coming this wed!). after that we had dinner at this damn good one michelin star place. had veal cheeks which were literally melt in your mouth kind. it was like high-class dinning so the portions were small and we paid 40USD, but it was well worth it. where eles can you find such good food. and of cos there was this pretty chio chinese phillipines staff there at all the singaporean guys were o.O at hahaha faints. next day was spent more or less shopping and everything, or maybe windowshopping. i bought a coat. haha improve my fashion sense (i hope so). yeah newyork is more or less similar to philly's center city i guess. photos on facebook too!

now for the pictures:

halloween last night. kuangli is supposed to be an egg, but you cant see his costume. michelle (ABC that is quite nice) and joyce (hongkonger) as cats!

dinner at 1 star restaurant. it happened to be birthday for both sue (china) and dionne.

oh and clubSG organized a MAF too! it was pretty fun we had lanterns and everything. then went to the field and lighted like 7 kongming lanterns!

management stuff i've been busy with. it seems americans arent that used to using photoshop.


my very lovely, newly decorated room.

[edit] i am damn frustrated with my parents, my dad especially. i dun see a need to add you on facebook so dun make me do it. and i hate it when you ask the same question again and again and again every week and when both of you ask the same question. and stop asking question for the sake of asking question cos there's no way you're gonna get information out of me. there's one thing they say every week: why so late still havent sleep. which really irritates me. it's not like i sleep at 10pm everyday in singapore and then change to a 2am lifestyle in the states. i've been sleeping even later in singapore.




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Wednesday, September 23rd, 2009
6:24 pm
the good thing about being in wharton is u get to listen to talks by people u'll nvr have chance to listen to in singapore.

went for a talk by CEO of Morgan Stanley. he spoke about leadership during the financial crisis. it was interesting listening from the perspectives of the CEO himself on how he managed the situation.

and i want to go westpoint.

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Tuesday, September 22nd, 2009
8:38 pm

Forbes.com


America's Best Colleges
America's Best College
Hana R. Alberts, 08.24.09, 12:00 AM ET

College senior Raymond Vetter gets up at dawn to fit in a run or a workout. Then, hair shorn neatly and pants pressed, he marches into breakfast, where he sits in an assigned seat. After six hours of instruction in such subjects as Japanese literature and systems engineering, two hours of intramural sports and another family-style meal with underclassmen, Vetter rushes to return to his room by the 11:30 p.m. curfew.

Most college students, we think, do not march to meals. A goodly number of them drink into the wee hours, duck morning classes and fail to hit the gym with any regularity. But Vetter, 21, is a cadet at the U.S. Military Academy in West Point, N.Y., where college life is a bit different.

According to students, alumni, faculty and higher education experts, the undergraduate experience at West Point and the other service academies is defined by an intense work ethic and a drive to succeed on all fronts. "We face challenges and obstacles that not every college student has to face, but we are able to be competitive in all the different areas, from sports to academics," Vetter says.

No alcohol is allowed in the dorms and freshmen are given only one weekend leave per semester. That rigor, combined with the virtue of a free education, has made West Point tops in FORBES' list of the best colleges in the country, up from sixth place last year. The rankings are compiled in conjunction with Ohio University economist Richard Vedder and his Center for College Affordability & Productivity. (Click here for the complete rankings and featured stories.)

West Point excels in most measures. It graduates 80% of its students in four years. It is fourth in winners of Rhodes scholarships since 1923 (ahead of Stanford), sixth in Marshalls since 1982 (ahead of Columbia and Cornell) and fourth in Trumans since 1992 (ahead of Princeton and Duke). This year 4 out of 37 Gates scholars, who earn a full ride to study at the University of Cambridge in England, graduated from the service academies. The Gates roster includes four Yale grads, one from Harvard and none from Princeton.

"I think I got a lot out of it," says Joseph M. DePinto, USMA class of '86 and chief executive of 7-Eleven. "Just the discipline, the approach I take to leadership, the understanding of the importance of teamwork. All of that stuff I learned at West Point, and I think that's what helped me be successful."

Classes are small, with no more than 18 students. Cadets work their way through a core curriculum in which an English major has to take calculus and a chemist has to take a philosophy course. Since there are no graduate programs, faculty and administrators can focus on the undergraduates.

"If you really look at Brown University or Boston College or Stanford, their number one mission is likely not to teach. It's to bring research dollars to the campus … to write the next book that will get them on CNN," says James Forest, an associate professor at West Point who is the director of terrorism studies. "Pressure to be that kind of new academic star isn't there [at West Point]."

A big factor in its top rank is that grads leave without a penny of tuition loans to repay. The Army picks up all costs and pays the cadets a stipend of $895 a month. On graduation, they start as second lieutenants, earning $69,000 a year. They have to serve in the armed forces for five years plus three more years of inactive reserve duty. The wars in Afghanistan and Iraq have pulled 15% of reservists into active duty.

West Point has plenty of critics. In April Thomas E. Ricks, a Pulitzer Prize-winning journalist who has covered the military, wrote an op-ed in the Washington Post, calling on the government to shut the military academies. West Point doesn't produce officers of any higher caliber, he argues, than a graduate from another elite school who has participated in an ROTC program. "It's not better than Harvard," he says, citing the fact that the majority of West Point professors don't have Ph.D.s and the school's traditionally weak treatment of crucial subjects like anthropology, history and foreign languages.

It also produces young people more prone to groupthink than to groundbreaking ideas. W. Patrick Lang, a graduate of the Virginia Military Institute and a professor of Arabic at West Point in the 1970s, says the service academies "haven't been very good at producing people who were very good at humanistic, open-ended problems."

Bruce Fleming, who has been teaching English for 22 years at the U.S. Naval Academy in Annapolis, Md., faults the service academies for their rigidity. "I really love my students. I just do. It's an institution that grinds students down," he says.

But the cadets know the drill: job security. Leadership training. Lifelong friendships. "A West Point diploma is at least as impressive as a Harvard diploma for a lot of things," says Robert Farley, an assistant professor of national security at the University of Kentucky. "Were I an employer, I'd have utter faith in a graduate of the service academies."

"We are giving up what may be the quintessential college experience. But we're getting a job where we're immediately in a leadership position, not a back-room job where who knows what your chances of promotion are," says Elizabeth Betterbed, 20, of Fox Island, Wash., one of the 699 female cadets at West Point. "Like any other school you incur a debt, and for us it only takes five years to pay off. It's really nothing."

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Sunday, September 20th, 2009
1:47 am
randomness: fun and the not-so-fun facts about life in penn so far.

1) i just saw two naked guys running around a frat house on the way back to my room.
2) i love the way the buildings are designed and built. they look frozen in time.
3) there are many squrriels around. they are like the rats of singapore.
4) i have co-ed bathroom in my hall.
5) i havent eaten chilli for a long long long time.
6) a pint of ben&jerry costs $3.99 at WaWa (i.e. 7-eleven)
7) almost all security personnel here are blacks.
8) no. of korean students > no. of PRC students > no. of singaporean students > no. of japanese students > no. of malaysian students.
9) i have not met an angmo guy smaller than me.
10) i went for swing dance auditions and got dizzy at the end of it.
11) americans like to say "what's that?" when they dun understand you.
12) im going to lessons in shorts and slippers now.
13) i have heard the F word less than 10 times since i arrived here.
14) drinking age is 21 here :(
15) i went to watch "chicago" musical on friday night.
16) i studied in the library till 2am one night.
17) they have no nice non-gassy soft drinks here, i.e. no green tea, no crysanthenum
18) singaporeans have been a nice comfort zone.
19) japanese food is easier to find than chinese food.
20) the dining hall serves terrible rice. americans just cant cook rice.
21) they clubs & societies advertise by drawing on the pavement/walls/watever with chalk which looks damn nice.
22) the philadelphia museum is awesome.
23) i realised the amish population is actually in penn (if u rmb it from evolution).
24) i spent a significant part of last week studying the entire jc bio syllabus to take a placement test.
25) the rigour of lessons here have been good. really got me thinking on ideas.
26) obama-ism is real.
27) coffee is the way to start the day.
28) americans sun-tan in bikini or topless on the grass patch on campus.
29) im gonna try skydiving some time soon.
30) i have not found an american i can call a friend yet.
31) i still get the feeling that i can see my bros every weekend.
32) i met a 28 year old PhD student (in biotech) who has a major in PIANO.
33) i miss the life in hwachong.
34) i miss MAF. i miss 34th. i miss SnR.
35) i just skyped with SnR (well some of them) this morning and that really made my day.
36) i got emo watching the MAF grandlight up from 2007 on youtube and looking at photos posted on facebook.
37) i miss not having someone i can really count on. someone who i know i can talk to about anything.
38) if u ever come to the states, call me. my no. is 215-313-8388.
39) most teens begin their first relationship between 13 to 15.
40) im watching manu vs mancity tmr morning so i better wake up.

i noe i need to take more pictures. i will soon.

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Tuesday, September 8th, 2009
1:11 am
updates:


dorm before i did anything to it, not that i did much.


walking around campus, which is pretty nice and relaxing.



scenes from the quad, which is the place i live in.


socials. which are basically parties for ppl to get to know the place and socialise. they have parties like everywhere, library, bookstore, museum. minus the alcohol of course.


my room now, which is still sparsely furnished and getting messier by the day.

more to come.

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Monday, September 7th, 2009
8:55 pm
watch this please: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6FahBBnfHAQ especially gwee.

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Wednesday, September 2nd, 2009
7:35 am
stanley is in london and has 1min left on the com internet.

thanks loads to all at the airport <3
i'll miss everyone!

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Friday, August 14th, 2009
1:32 am
I remember the times we spent together
on those drives
We had a million questions
all about our lives
and when we got to New York
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
tonight

I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin'
except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I remember the time you told me about when you were eight
And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
and the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
and stayed out way too late
I remember the time you SAT AND told me about your Jesus
and how not to look back even if no one believes us
When it hurt so bad sometimes
not having you here...

I sing,
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight"

I sing,
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight"

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Sunday, August 9th, 2009
4:39 am
decided to change my flight from northwest to british airways. better timeslot, service and transit. so im now leaving on 1 Sept 2310h.

which gives me pretty much 2 more weeks after the end of the mindef PDC.

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Friday, July 24th, 2009
12:48 am
uni administrative stuff are killing me. courses, billings, insurance, housing etc.

im leaving at 0540 on 1sept.

till then, my schedule is so packed.

25jul: SAC 
26jul - 1aug: brunei
2aug - 7aug: CLD
11aug - 14aug: MINDEF PDC

better make good use of whatever time i have to pack up, eat up, mug up and MEET UP.

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Monday, July 20th, 2009
1:46 am

 


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Sunday, July 19th, 2009
3:54 am
im gonna miss nights like these.

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Monday, July 6th, 2009
12:11 am
long overdue.




 

it seems like i have only this much time left before i leave.
 

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